Brothers

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tracks 2-6 were recorded at Jasper's house in Maine. The others were recorded in the house i grew up in, in Rhode Island and my room in Cambridge.

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released March 30, 2013

Jasper Boyd mastered most of the tracks, and plays melodica on Somewhere, whistles in the background of Unknown Pleasures, and plays guitar on Mellen street. All songs written by Samantha Martasian.

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Missing Twin is Samantha Martasian.
Low-Fi Anti-Folk
Boston/Providence

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Track Name: Unknown Pleasures
Sometimes when you're gone for weeks at a time
I scope out my room in case you left something behind
a little reassurance that I could hold on to
that this is just another phase and we can pull through
but there are no trinkets, no letters, books or takes
no post cards from you with pretty pictures of lakes
once again I'm certain that I'm not on your mind
and I start to feel real stupid that I keep giving you mine

My brother's girlfriend is terribly pretty
I hope that's what your sister's see when they look at me
not my messy hair, or my bad taste,
the family resemblance nothing can erase
Our parents are not like your's
they loved for a little and then they got divorced
I wonder if that short lived thing's hereditary
and all those awful thoughts collect and gang up on me

maybe I
could meet you sometime
without the anxiety
that is always mine
I think you would feel like you are finally fine
and if not right away
maybe over time
'cus freedom is another trap that we fall into
it's lovely at first when it's shiny and new
but it grows and changes with time
until you wish you had one person who could tell
when you lie

I guess I'll wait where you left me right here
listen to unknown pleasures
and drink my brother's beer
he'll notice that they're gone, but he won't say much
he knows he'd feel the same if he and heidi were
out of touch
Track Name: Somewhere
There's a beautiful sunset somewhere
but we can't see it where we stand
in the heart of a lost city
in the promised land

and someday i'll have someone to sing these songs to
maybe this time they'll have me too
when it falls out and i'm alone again
i'll come crawling back to you

and there are people who are ugly like me
but they're happy and in love
i can't subscribe to that feeling
i wanna think that i'm too tough

Winter just makes it fucking hard to move
and we still have December left to go
until the cold's really here and we can burry our hearts
and our heads out in the snow
Track Name: I Am Afraid
'm afraid of how homesick I am
Been leavin' for so long now, I don't know if I can
I stay out late, I sleep in my van
'cus I don't like the person that I am

I'm afraid for people that I love
That they'll all be destroyed by some small grudge
I wanna keep them safe, but i'm scared I'm not enough
So I'm afraid for people that I love

I'm afraid that you won't come back
That the feelings you misplaced for me are no longer in tact
It makes me feel sick just to think about that
I am so afraid you never will come back.

and I'm afraid I'll turn into my dad
Even though my problems are ones he never had
He tried to be an artist, now I'm tryin' that
so I'm afraid I'll turn into my dad

Because sometimes we hurt the ones we love
Somehow that affection never is enough
Being alone is getting way too tough
I'm so close to just giving up

I'm afraid I am the only one
who feels completely doomed when the day is done
but feeling bad for myself's no fun
and I know that I am the only one

I'm afraid that you still don't know
all of the long lengths that I would go
to make you see that you are not alone
but you will not let me tell you so

I'm afraid I am as good as gone
I feel a lot like elliott, and he was twice as strong
I have been fighting for too long
I think I am as good as gone.
Track Name: False Starts
There's a song that i loved, but it lost all it's meaning
in the white wash of change i thought that i was needing
the cure is the disease, the repellant still brings the bees
and i'm out of the flames, but i'm still fighting this feeling
like maybe i'd get better, if i knew what needed healing
but it's nothing i can fix
so i'll just have to forget
the peace that was fleeting, and the love i haven't found yet

Now i've said too much, and i've changed the opinion
of the people that i loved who thought they knew what i was thinking
the sun is just too much, it's like judgement i can touch
when the light hits the wall, like a stray baseball
and i'm out of the flames, but i'm still fighting this feeling
like maybe i'd get better if i knew what needed healing
but it's nothing i can fix
so i'll just have to forget
the peace that was fleeting, and the love i haven't found yet

so we can fuck or watch TV
it's all the same to me
i'm running on empty
but i'm still afraid to eat
Track Name: Mellen Street
Let's just call it having sex
pretend we both don't know what happens next
i'm not gonna lie to your face
i'm not gonna lie to your face
i'm not gonna lie to your face
or leave my toothbrush at your place

I play the same three chords each day
dreamin' about lettermen anyway
i'll probably give up like my pa
make my wife drink her stake through a straw
cus' i am an artist but i
i am an artist but i
i am an artist but i
i am an artist but
today i just feel cheap

love,
come back to me
safety,
come back to me
mother,
come back to me
pity,
set me free
set me free
set me free

there are people who are true
and they are waiting somewhere for you
but i
have lost my way
waiting for a place to stay

you don't have to love me much
just give me something warm to touch
and kiss me like a stranger
kiss me like a stranger
kiss me like a stranger
because that's all i am today

love-
come back to me
safety-
come back to me
mother-
come back to me
pity-
set me free
set me free
set me free
set me free
Track Name: Pretend To Be A Tiger
Lie to me
Tell me that I am good
Pretend that I really have
Done the best that I could

Oh, River
Why do you run away?
I have built a hundred damns
Trying to make you stay

And lord jesus
Do you know my name?
are you just another victim
In your father's game?

I want to be a tiger
Angry and free
But I am just a paper bird
I am stuck inside of your tree

I am tired
Of waiting for a sign
Seeing hope in everyone
But never finding mine

Under the water
No one has a voice
We all wanna Scream and shout
But we only make noise

And we listen to the men
Saying "don't be scared"
They shoot the horses in their knees
and then they chew on their hair

But I want to be a tiger
Angry and free
I am just a paper bird
I am stuck inside of your tree